because honestly you’re the best fucking friend i’ve ever had. and i know that whenever i hit a low point, you’ll show up. you always do. you always come around and tell me you love me and that i’m special and the greatest girl you know and i’m going to be somebody and any guy would be lucky to have me and if you were here you’d be that guy and blah blah blah.

and for a little while, you’re everything i need. and then, true to form, you just stop getting back to me. you pull away. you don’t answer my texts. you don’t reassure me that i’m a good person, or that you love me, or that i deserve bigger and better things. it happens every fucking time.

so i delete your number. stay off of facebook. go off and do stupid things with stupid people because i don’t have you to hold me together. and the stitches rip because i drink and smoke and fuck away my problems because for whatever reason you won’t get back to me. finally i can’t hold together anymore. i break. i collapse.

and, true to form, you text me out of the blue. use all the right words to pick me back up and put me back together. and i believe you. i believe you every fucking time because you’re so important to me. because you’re the closest thing i have to feeling human. 

i can feel you pulling away again. i can feel your words getting emptier by the hour and i honestly don’t know how many more times i can go through this. i don’t know if i can go through this in my current state. please don’t walk out again. please.

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this is the dream. 

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mamalukapr:

(◕‿◕✿) Jimmy Fallon 

they both are just too adorable.

zlarp:

zlarp

when i get home, i am going rent the king’s speech and drink tea. :)

despite the fact that i unfortunately don’t get to see cassy, i am so, so, SO unbelievably excited that i get to go home this summer, even if it’s only for a few days.

i love london. LOVE IT. although i haven’t lived there in nearly 11 years, it’s the one place i consider home. and i get to go to england, and especially london, so infrequently, that i forget all of the little english things i love. tescos, lucozade, richmond green, ALL OF THE SLANG, the bbc, doctor who, the architecture. i love london. i love it so much. and i especially love richmond (pictured here) which is literally a five minute walk away from where i grew up. it’s the most beautiful place, really serene and calm yet filled with so much to do.

and i cannot wait, i cannot fucking wait, to be sitting on richmond green, with my best and oldest friend Toby, eating sandwiches and catching up. 

i. am so. excited. :)

i miss this place so much. merp.

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